string up.

i can be very pessimistic sometimes.
i hate all the negative thoughts and i seriously have to get rid of them.
i'm hanging confused because of my very own attitude.
i can simply make a conclusion without seeking for the truth.
sorry for the misunderstandings& also ignorance .
now,i know.
and for that, i'm veryyyy soree.
i shall make it up back.
you might think that i'm selfish and small gas.
dats why i need someone like you who can tolerate with me like crazy.
feel like locking myself in a room full of hard drinks and get hangover just like that.
mandy has contributed a lot.
thx again,woman.
you've been helping me again and again.
and i guess that's wad you call a true friend,right?
i will go to my friends when i think i kena bullied.
at least i know where and who to rely on.
and to the someone who doesn't appreciate my card,
thanx for your ear and your time.
i hope you know yourself.
anyways,happy belated birthday:)
see!i do remember:)eheh.just that i'm late.

i think my blog is lack of pictures,no?
i will have to pour some out from my cammie then.

[holiday villa-16th oct]

rach.me.zoe's sexyy back


zoe&the models


zoe:)


gabby.he wannabe a weirdo i guess.




i have to believe in myself.
let the light
shine on me.

no more hiding.

whats pressure ah?

pressure equals vilyn.
me|chris

slowmobaby is drowning herself with pressure.
can you give me some?
cuz i dunno what it's like.
i've found my external joy.
but my internal joy,
where are you?
i saw this awesome powsome body hugging cocktail at mng. but i promised myself to only shop after my finals. haihs.

right now,i can only bully mini and also my dee to make myself smile.


.

i'm not crazy.
just undefinable.

to feel lonely in the crowd.
to feel cold under the sun.
to feel dark in the light.
dats me right now.

not in these imperfections.

student exchange trip to aussie is cancelled.
i wanna go japan even if its more expensive cuz i dunhav other choices.
my parents allow me to join the trip but its FULL.
darn.
so,this is it.
life is always unfair especially mine.
my dad only allows me to follow mum to milan only if i get good results.
this is a vacation.
i dun freaking understand why he has to judge everything by my results.
i barely slept this week except for last night.
cuz exam is half over and my dearest daughter asked me to put the exam aside and do what i want.
i chose to be a pig.
i was laughing at mandy's pale face and her eye-bags yest.
i guess i hav to laugh at myself now cuz my eye-bags is bigger than hers.
exam always give me eye-bags and i hate it.
i'm super disappointed at myself.
i hate addmaths among all the science subjects.
i freaking need tuition for addmaths.
i think i'm gonna fail addmaths super badly for my finals.
chem,+maths(p2) &bio(p3) papers next week.
i have to seriously revise on these four days.
cuz idon'twanttofailsomuch.

i will try to make it better.
i swear.

it's always been like this.isn't it?

even if the cold war is the reason why my heart is broken apart,
i'll still stand firm to face everything.
maybe by setting you free makes you happier.
but my heart is not agree with me.
i will do whatever i can to make it works and lasts.
am i standing at the right path and doing what is right?

can't block it.

i cant control my own feelings.
if i could,i will not live in agony now.
life sucks.
but i'm still cool with everything.
more to pretending actually.

our territory:)

Sumir:babyroom
S&J:hotelroom
ivan:janitor room???!!
meeee:toilet:)

went chi ceong kai [china town]with ah lui(siew bao),ah chai(jon)&kajie(eric) to makan yest.
i took train there:).wheee.
i was very excited at first cuz i've never been there with train.
i ordered 'ma lat tong noodle'.
it was sizzling hot & spicy too.
my mouth could take it but my tummy couldnt.
anyhow,i managed to finish it:).
ohw..i wanna go there again!
curry&asam laksa will be next.


mmm..slurrrp.


my friends are being protective over me.
they know that i bottle up my feelings. but i shared with them how i felt.
they know that i dare not to tell bb how i felt.
so,they told him for me:)
what did they tell him?i wanna know desperately here.eheh.
mandy&b refused to tell me.
i'm lucky to have such great friends.
guess that my prob is settled dy.no?
thx mandy.thx slowmo.
heartyouheartyouheartyou!

training myself to taste more food:)
as you said,can eat dun waste:)

ease me with pain.

i'm bored:(
bored of studying.
surprisingly,not stressed at all.
that was my adorable dog.taken when he was 3mnths.
the cutest moment of mini.
he's not that cute anymore cuz he;s often kena tortured by me now=)
i'm such a mean owner,i know:(
everyone who has seen how i treated my dog will 100% agree with me.
i love mini actually.
just that the way i love him is slightly different.



the mini now.kena bullied by me.tsk tsk.
but that doesnt mean that i dont love him.
oh yeah=)


nothing is forever.
even my dog,mini.
he'll be in heaven one day.
i dunno why i mentioned bout this.
maybe this prob is crazily spinning around my freaking head.
i must solve this or else i don't think i can concentrate studying chem:(
is there really forever?
prove to me that something is actually meant to be forever then.

tellmewhyi'mnotinyourheart?
pls tell me that i'm not lying to myself.