Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Devil in Paradise

I'm a jerk.an ass too.
how can i not know that u are a great guy?
n how can i not know that i just dun suit u?
i just cant find my old self anymore.
i'm not gonna avoid u or ignore u.
really sorry for what i've done.
even if u choose to move on,i'll be okay with it cuz i have to stop hurting you.
all i need right now is to think.
i need TIME to clear my mind.
to clear my thoughts.
these few months have been great.
thx a lot.
u asked me to choose between u n my friends.
i was angry and my heart broke.
we are not even tghr.
how can i end this?
obviously i'd choose my friends cuz i need them more now.
i'm just a student n its not the right time for me think bout those stuff yet.
i know u are fine with it n u really want to sort things out but i'm not.
the problem is with me.not u.
u can hate me n u can blame me.
things will not be the same anymore cuz i dunnoe how to face u anymore.
the feelings are still there just that its lesser.
i'm not romantic and i'm not great enough.
you've done so much for me but i dun noe how to appreciate it n i din noe how to react at that time.
wad else can i say besides sorry n thank you.
truth be told,i'm sick n tired out the mouths.
i gotta create thousands of lies to cover the truth cuz no one in the house will ever trust me.
so,the best way is to take a long break.
friends are always there for me through thick or thin especially the kissers n swan.
they know wad to say n wad not to.
i really need them right now.
i'm like a dead pig now.
i'm super duper confused.
i love my friends.where are u guys?
and thx for calling me, kisser 2&4.
i called kisser #1=)
they gave me advices and i've made up my mind.
i'll follow my heart....


to all those little memories,
i'll treasure u guys.
i'm like a devil in the paradise cuz i have a happy life but yet i dont noe how to appreciate it.
our paths may change as life goes along but the bond between friends remain the same.

the best way to mend a broken heart is time.

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